#MotivationalMonday

Perspective

Is That Really You?

As I opened the website to make this newsletter, the receiving page was nearly blank and stated those words, "Is That Really You?". It's been so long that not even the website recognized me. I wish I could say I knew what happened. Something I was cherishing, (talking to yall via this newsletter), all of a sudden became a huge responsibility that I didn't think I was ready for. Funny though, as I was already doing it.

This newsletter got personal, got real, got too in my feels. One day off turned into one week, then one month, and then next thing I know, it's been 7 months. Honestly, I changed during this time. My life changed during this time. Access to my life changed during this time. It was time for a change as the newsletter became more than it was ever supposed to be, or so I thought.

What am I saying?

My audience is changing. When I started this newsletter it was just a way for me to connect with my clients and to give a little nudge of motivation before the start of the week. At some point I started teaching more about Christianity and Mental Health. Other points I started sharing more personal stories in order to show the realness of life coming from a therapist perspective. Then I started seminary classes and learning more about God. Next thing I know life was busy and intentional in other areas.

From one perspective one may say I burnt out. From another perspective one may say I was overwhelmed and had no more space. Another perspective shares the viewpoint that I no longer wanted to share the most intimate parts of who I was and the things I was experiencing out loud. Yet at the very same time, I was so proud of this newsletter and what it was doing for others. I found myself just not able to write.

No words quite made sense, no topic came to mind, but the guilt was there. Every Monday there was guilt that I had not produced and then one day I forgot it even existed. The perspective that my audience has changed, really just solidified that I had changed. I'd rather focus on Christianity. I rather focus on bringing God into the story. I rather include Him in my writing. It became clear that this platform was not meant for that, or maybe it was.

The Solution

Besides my personal change, my company changed as well. It's no longer just me. This company has five amazing female therapist. All of us has specialty areas and all of us have expertise and things to say and share. It no longer felt comfortable to share this newsletter from my one perspective. In gathering the ladies together for our first in person dinner. We decided as a team that we would open this newsletter up to hear several voices. Instead of letting something I cherish so dearly disappear, I'm going to open it up. I'm learning in this life of ours we not only need to ask for help, but we also have to be open to letting others in.

This baby of mine is something special and I would love to share it with my company and so without any more hesitation, I want to announce that we're back and I am sharing the floor with Jasmine, Shanika, Monisha and Debbie.